Existential Playground: The Gods Our Inner Parts Worship

June 23, 2026
Location: Virtual
Online Series

A free, virtual event series dedicated to playfully experimenting with transformative play​

Our existence is fluid.  What it is to be, is to be in relation to others, and the embedded rules that define our togetherness.  In Existential Playgrounds we play with those rules, by breaking them, questioning them, and re-making them. Each playground creates an immersive container around a particular theme, technique or practice. Existential Playgrounds are free! This is an opportunity to come together and play without financial exchanges — a time to gather, connect, play deeply, and converse. This is also a great opportunity for people to explore what The Deep Play Institute is about, to get to know us, and feel into what we do, and how we do it. Think of it like recess!

Past Existential Playgrounds

Existential Playground #31 The Gods Our Inner Parts Worship Part 1 | Tues June 23, 2026 9AM PST / 12PM EST / 5PM GMT
In spring of 2026 Existential Playgrounds will dip into a simmering pool of archetypal depth psychology following the thoughts of the radical Jungian thinker James Hillman. We will begin to imagine our psyche’s complexes (or inner parts) as entities worshipping a constellation of archetypes, gods, or modes of being. We will play with psychodramatic and imaginal techniques that help us re-orient to a worldview and way of “playing with our parts” that is perhaps more intrinsic to the fertile, wild, and awe-inspiring animate realm of images and voices that we call “our own”. 
 
Bio: Aaron Finbloom is an ideological polytheist, devoted to exploring and worshipping the divine frameworks of: truth, play, authenticity, imagination, transformation and beauty. 
His life work is to creatively expand, collage and integrate healing & fine arts practices through conversation scores, relational games, live action role play, performance art and dance. 
He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI). Aaron has training in Circling, Psychodrama, Buddhist Meditation and Processwork and holds a PhD in relational practice from Concordia University in Montreal. He currently teaches philosophy at the City College of New York. finblooming.com

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.
In spring of 2026 Existential Playgrounds will dip into a simmering pool of archetypal depth psychology following the thoughts of the radical Jungian thinker James Hillman. We will begin to imagine our psyche’s complexes (or inner parts) as entities worshipping a constellation of archetypes, gods, or modes of being. We will play with psychodramatic and imaginal techniques that help us re-orient to a worldview and way of “playing with our parts” that is perhaps more intrinsic to the fertile, wild, and awe-inspiring animate realm of images and voices that we call “our own”. 
 
Bio: Aaron Finbloom is an ideological polytheist, devoted to exploring and worshipping the divine frameworks of: truth, play, authenticity, imagination, transformation and beauty. 
His life work is to creatively expand, collage and integrate healing & fine arts practices through conversation scores, relational games, live action role play, performance art and dance. 
He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI). Aaron has training in Circling, Psychodrama, Buddhist Meditation and Processwork and holds a PhD in relational practice from Concordia University in Montreal. He currently teaches philosophy at the City College of New York. finblooming.com

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

In spring of 2026 Existential Playgrounds will dip into a simmering pool of archetypal depth psychology following the thoughts of the radical Jungian thinker James Hillman. We will begin to imagine our psyche’s complexes (or inner parts) as entities worshipping a constellation of archetypes, gods, or modes of being. We will play with psychodramatic and imaginal techniques that help us re-orient to a worldview and way of “playing with our parts” that is perhaps more intrinsic to the fertile, wild, and awe-inspiring animate realm of images and voices that we call “our own”. 
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Bio: Aaron Finbloom is an ideological polytheist, devoted to exploring and worshipping the divine frameworks of: truth, play, authenticity, imagination, transformation and beauty.  His life work is to creatively expand, collage and integrate healing & fine arts practices through conversation scores, relational games, live action role play, performance art and dance. He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI). Aaron has training in Circling, Psychodrama, Buddhist Meditation and Processwork and holds a PhD in relational practice from Concordia University in Montreal. He currently teaches philosophy at the City College of New York. finblooming.com
 

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Existential Playground #28 Imaginal Practice - Projection | Thurs May 19, 2026 9AM PST / 12PM EST / 5PM GMT

Spring 2025 Existential Playgrounds will focus again on the imaginal – our imagination’s capacity to co-construct images with the world. The third and final playground will focus on “Relationality” as we will play with how another person contains a rich vital field of our own projections and introjections. We will work in pairs and carefully, consensually and politely invite our partner to move in ways that facilitate our imagination’s perception of them.
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Bio: Aaron Finbloom is an ideological polytheist, devoted to exploring and worshipping the divine frameworks of: art, play, listening, healing and wonder. His life work involves expanding transformative inquiry practice through games, performance art and conversation scores. He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI). Aaron has training in Circling, Psychodrama, Buddhist Meditation and Processwork and holds a PhD in relational practice from Concordia University in Montreal. He currently teaches philosophy at the City College of New York. finblooming.com

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge: I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Spring 2025 Existential Playgrounds will focus again on the imaginal – our imagination’s capacity to co-construct images with the world. The second playground will focus on “Exteriors” as we each provide Jungian-inspired co-counseling for one another. Each “client” in the pair will use free association to access some kind of problem, fear, or desire. And then the “counselor” will use mild prompts to merely extend the imagination within our psyche’s area of interest. Participants will experience both roles.

Bio: Aaron Finbloom is an ideological polytheist, devoted to exploring and worshipping the divine frameworks of: art, play, listening, healing and wonder. His life work involves expanding transformative inquiry practice through games, performance art and conversation scores. He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI). Aaron has training in Circling, Psychodrama, Buddhist Meditation and Processwork and holds a PhD in relational practice from Concordia University in Montreal. He currently teaches philosophy at the City College of New York. finblooming.com

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Spring 2025 Existential Playgrounds will focus again on the imaginal – our imagination’s capacity to co-construct images with the world. The first playground will focus on “interiors” which means images inside our minds (for lack of a better word). We will close our eyes together and create a vision of ourselves in an imagined realm. Then we will get into duos and take turns giving focused attention to the other’s emergent image-worlds. 

Bio: Aaron Finbloom is an ideological polytheist, devoted to exploring and worshipping the divine frameworks of: art, play, listening, healing and wonder. His life work involves expanding transformative inquiry practice through games, performance art and conversation scores. He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI). Aaron has training in Circling, Psychodrama, Buddhist Meditation and Processwork and holds a PhD in relational practice from Concordia University in Montreal. He currently teaches philosophy at the City College of New York. finblooming.com

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Fall 2024 Existential Playgrounds will be playing with projection & introjection. Taking inspiration from thinkers such as Jung, James Hillman, and Rob Burbea we will putting aside our moral claims that typically come with these terms: projection (putting feeling/beliefs out onto others) and introjection (internalizing feelings/beliefs inward from others). Instead we will lean into the belief that we are part of vast network of feelings, archetypes, perceptions, of which move into us and move out from us. Rather than push aside or judge these rich worlds of images, we will play with them to see what beauty lies in their darkness, strangeness or shyness. Participants are encouraged to join for all 3 playgrounds, but can also join for only one or two as well.

The final playground in the series will use a conversation game involving sentence stems to play with projections and introjections. The game builds until we find ourselves in a structure affording radical creativity and authenticity where the walls that divide self-other begin to become quite thin.

Bio: Aaron Finbloom identifies as a philosophical polytheist, devoted to exploring and worshipping divine frameworks related to: art, play, listening, healing, curiosity, and structure. His life work involves expanding transformative inquiry practice through games, performance art and conversation scores. He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI). Aaron has training in Circling, Psychodrama, Buddhist Meditation and Processwork and holds a PhD in relational practice from Concordia University in Montreal. He currently teaches philosophy at the City College of New York. finblooming.com

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Fall 2024 Existential Playgrounds will be playing with projection & introjection. Taking inspiration from thinkers such as Jung, James Hillman, and Rob Burbea we will putting aside our moral claims that typically come with these terms: projection (putting feeling/beliefs out onto others) and introjection (internalizing feelings/beliefs inward from others). Instead we will lean into the belief that we are part of vast network of feelings, archetypes, perceptions, of which move into us and move out from us. Rather than push aside or judge these rich worlds of images, we will play with them to see what beauty lies in their darkness, strangeness or shyness. Participants are encouraged to join for all 3 playgrounds, but can also join for only one or two as well.

The second playground in this series will involve a group process of allowing images, emotions, beliefs, movements to come into us. A playlist of evocative music will be used in an attempt to bring us into enhanced spontaneity as we let ourselves be swept up by the characters that reside within emotions not typically expressed.

Bio: Aaron Finbloom identifies as a philosophical polytheist, devoted to exploring and worshipping divine frameworks related to: art, play, listening, healing, curiosity, and structure. His life work involves expanding transformative inquiry practice through games, performance art and conversation scores. He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI). Aaron has training in Circling, Psychodrama, Buddhist Meditation and Processwork and holds a PhD in relational practice from Concordia University in Montreal. He currently teaches philosophy at the City College of New York. finblooming.com

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Fall 2024 Existential Playgrounds will be playing with projection & introjection. Taking inspiration from thinkers such as Jung, James Hillman, and Rob Burbea we will putting aside our moral claims that typically come with these terms: projection (putting feeling/beliefs out onto others) and introjection (internalizing feelings/beliefs inward from others). Instead we will lean into the belief that we are part of vast network of feelings, archetypes, perceptions, of which move into us and move out from us. Rather than push aside or judge these rich worlds of images, we will play with them to see what beauty lies in their darkness, strangeness or shyness. Participants are encouraged to join for all 3 playgrounds, but can also join for only one or two as well.

The first playground in this series will involve pairing up and letting projections organically emerge onto the other. Once projected, you will have the option to play with these projections through movement and amplification.

Bio: Aaron Finbloom identifies as a philosophical polytheist, devoted to exploring and worshipping divine frameworks related to: art, play, listening, healing, curiosity, and structure. His life work involves expanding transformative inquiry practice through games, performance art and conversation scores. He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI). Aaron has training in Circling, Psychodrama, Buddhist Meditation and Processwork and holds a PhD in relational practice from Concordia University in Montreal. He currently teaches philosophy at the City College of New York. finblooming.com

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

One of my mind’s favorite tricks is “ugh, I already know what’s going to happen. And it’s going to be boring.” This mindset makes everything harder, so I’ve been actively training my mind to open up and get curious. In this session, I’ll share one of the practices I use to get excited about the world again. We’ll collectively use tarot, storytelling and brainstorming to help one another open up and discover there are more possibilities than we thought! The session will be fast-paced, and you are encouraged to work at your own pace, participating as much or as little as feels good.

Bio: Indigo Esmonde is an artist and songwriter living in living in Stratford, Ontario, Canada. Currently, they are doing a performance art series about how to destroy your own ego. You can find their work at daydreamsandassociates.com and realitycalibration.com. Indigo has been described as ‘brilliant and terrifying,’ ‘naive,’ ‘an acquired taste,’ ‘a bit overbearing,’ ‘the best at throwing online parties’ and ‘lives on their own planet.’​ ​​​

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Spring 2024 Existential Playgrounds will focus in on the imaginal – our imagination’s capacity to co-construct images with the world. The third and final playground will focus on “bodies” as we will play with how another’s body contains a rich vital field of our own projections and introjections. We will work in pairs and carefully, consensually and politely invite our partner to move in ways that facilitate our imagination’s perception of them.

Bio: Aaron Finbloom identifies as a philosophical polytheist, devoted to exploring and worshipping divine frameworks related to: art, play, listening, healing, curiosity, and structure. His life work involves expanding transformative inquiry practice through games, performance art and conversation scores. He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI). Aaron has training in Circling, Psychodrama, Buddhist Meditation and Processwork and holds a PhD in relational practice from Concordia University in Montreal. He currently teaches philosophy at the City College of New York. finblooming.com

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Spring 2024 Existential Playgrounds will focus in on the imaginal – our imagination’s capacity to co-construct images with the world. The second playground will focus on “exteriors” as we will play with our ability to place imaginary images onto the “real” world around us. What will we be placing there? Our inner parts, thoughts or emotions as they organically emerge – all “converted” into images and placed in front of us. If time allows we will practice this in pairs doing a kind of imaginal inner parts relational meditation.

Bio: Aaron Finbloom identifies as a philosophical polytheist, devoted to exploring and worshipping divine frameworks related to: art, play, listening, healing, curiosity, and structure. His life work involves expanding transformative inquiry practice through games, performance art and conversation scores. He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI). Aaron has training in Circling, Psychodrama, Buddhist Meditation and Processwork and holds a PhD in relational practice from Concordia University in Montreal. He currently teaches philosophy at the City College of New York. finblooming.com

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Spring 2024 Existential Playgrounds will focus in on the imaginal – our imagination’s capacity to co-construct images with the world. The first playground will focus on “interiors” which means images inside our minds (for lack of a better word). We will close our eyes together and create a vision of ourselves in an imagined realm. Then we will get into duos and take turns giving focused attention to the other’s emergent image worlds. 

Bio: Aaron Finbloom identifies as a philosophical polytheist, devoted to exploring and worshipping divine frameworks related to: art, play, listening, healing, curiosity, and structure. His life work involves expanding transformative inquiry practice through games, performance art and conversation scores. He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI). Aaron has training in Circling, Psychodrama, Buddhist Meditation and Processwork and holds a PhD in relational practice from Concordia University in Montreal. He currently teaches philosophy at the City College of New York. finblooming.com

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Christopher Bollas in The Infinite Question re-defines the psychoanalytic relationship as one of collaborative free association. The client is free associating, and the analyst lets their mind wander and shares their own associations that pop up out of ether holding a kind of non-conceptual (dream?) resonance with the content of the client. We will break into duos and play client and therapist together to try this out.

Bio: Aaron Finbloom is a philosopher, artist and pedagogue.  He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the founder & director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI).  His practice involves expanding transformative inquiry through games, performance art and structured play.  With training in Circling, Authentic Relating, and Psychodrama, he also facilitates experimental individual and group sessions inspired by these practices.  Finbloom has presented works internationally at venues which include:  The Museum of Contemporary Art in Chicago, Gallery 151 (New York), Maschinenhaus Kulturbrauerei (Berlin), UNAM (Mexico City), and MainLine Theatre (Montreal). He holds a PhD in Interdisciplinary Humanities & Fine Arts from Concordia University in Montreal, and is currently teaching Philosophy at the City College of New York and The University of Portland. finblooming.com

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

The Mystery Playground operates on the premise that there is a body of subtle information that lives in the fascia of our individual and collective fields, and this information Wants to reveal to us a deeper experience of ourselves by playing with/ inside of it! The structure of the playground will ultimately serve our collective Listening to this information, prioritizing a felt sense for questions like—“What Wants to arise?” What is here now? What Wants to be seen/ felt/ attended to now?” in the context of our togetherness.

Bio: Kaffey is a student of improvisation— listening and responding to Life as Life speaks. Lately, the question she has been paying attention to is: Where is the abundance now?”

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Doubling is back on the playground for a third round! This time we’ll explicitly name some variety of ways to double to try to extend our doubling practice. Doubling is a psychodramatic technique whereby one person attempts to speak the inner world of another.  The function of doubling is to reach deeper layers of expression by bridging subjectivities (I am, for a moment, you), thereby reaching images and experiences that an individual may have a harder time expressing and accessing. In this existential playground we will introduce the technique, practice it together, and then experiment with modifications.  

Bio: Aaron Finbloom is a philosopher, artist and pedagogue.  He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the founder & director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI).  His practice involves expanding transformative inquiry through games, performance art and structured play.  With training in Circling, Authentic Relating, and Psychodrama, he also facilitates experimental individual and group sessions inspired by these practices.  Finbloom has presented works internationally at venues which include:  The Museum of Contemporary Art in Chicago, Gallery 151 (New York), Maschinenhaus Kulturbrauerei (Berlin), UNAM (Mexico City), and MainLine Theatre (Montreal). He holds a PhD in Interdisciplinary Humanities & Fine Arts from Concordia University in Montreal, and is currently teaching Philosophy at the City College of New York and The University of Portland. finblooming.com

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

A playground that is right now a mystery, but whose process will unfold at some point of time before the playground begins.

Bio: Kaffey is a student of improvisation— listening and responding to Life as Life speaks. Lately, the question she has been paying attention to is: Where is the abundance now?”

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Crossing and Dwelling is a one hour series of object-play prompts using somatic excursive practice, collective daydreaming, and an imaginary museum curation game. Participants will bring one object to the playground that they claim is “from home” and one they claim is “from away”, or if they prefer, one object that is “taken when running from family” and one that is brought with “when running towards family”. Starting out together/alone i.e. working with our intrapersonal stuff, we will eventually enter a space where we are alone/together i.e. working with our interpersonal stuff, and then depart by another route entirely:  are we now together or alone? We will recall a migration that happens to us in the future/s, or happened in the past/s – you are not sure which it is yet! – Curating an imaginary museum of the past time, or prophetic time to come when we cross/ed over somewhere to dwell over somewhere else. Our unique set of assembled memories will search using the embodied sense we each have of caretaking objects while we have travelled through Lands without roads. 

Bio: Grey Piitaapan Muldoon is a performance artist, researcher, witness, fugitive, teacher, and other roles. Grey is now looking at how connections form into kinships. Grey may want to describe a teaching practice that is receptive rather than results oriented, i.e., not remedial, custodial, training, or mentors, more like a heart/h. Their research is currently based at Eye Level Gallery in Kjipuktuk.  Grey is stuck on the difference between attunement and attention, if you want to talk about it. During their phase, look for participatory object theatre / ritual / game workshops featuring; canoes full of kitchenware, sticks and blankets, duck eggs, and low tides. Grey is trans*, queer, adopted (twice), autistic, chronically ill, with acquired dis/abilities, with experience of (inter)generational poverty, liminialization, dis/locations, trauma, and drama. Grey also holds two university degrees, in Religious Studies & Indigenous Studies (2011), and in Interdisciplinary Art (2021). They practice performance art in the streets, in galleries, in intimate spaces, and remotely. Grey has hitch-hiked thousands of miles alone and with love, completed a 12 year performance series in which each shot of testosterone Grey took to “transition” was administered by a unique individual, and is periodically obsessed with the cameras attached to the International Space Station. 

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

This session will discuss altered states and why they are important to the human experience. What comes up in altered states? What causes altered states to happen? How do altered states inform us, and how do we integrate our downloads into our day-to-day life?
*This existential playground is exclusively for people of color.

Bio: Ifetayo Harvey is the founder of the People of Color Psychedelic Collective (POCPC), which educates and builds a community with people of color interested in psychedelics and ending the war on drugs. Ifetayo is a 2022 Soros Justice Fellow and a member of the Federal Policy Guidelines for Psychedelics Working Group led by Healing Equity and Liberation. She was also a member of the Research to Reality: Global Summit on Psychedelic-Assisted Therapies and Medicine Advisory Committee. Ifetayo’s experience growing up with her father in prison brought her to drug policy reform work in 2013 as an intern at the Drug Policy Alliance (DPA) and then joined them full-time in 2016. In 2013 Ifetayo was the opening plenary speaker at the International Drug Policy Reform Conference in Denver, Colorado. Ifetayo comes from a family of seven children raised by her mother in Charleston, South Carolina. She has a Bachelor’s degree from Smith College in history and African studies, where the college awarded her Outstanding Student Leader of the Year in 2014.

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Doubling is back on the playground for a second round! Doubling is a psychodramatic technique whereby one person attempts to speak the inner world of another.  The function of doubling is to reach deeper layers of expression by bridging subjectivities (I am, for a moment, you), thereby reaching images and experiences that an individual may have a harder time expressing and accessing. In this existential playground we will introduce the technique, practice it together, and then experiment with modifications.  

Bio: Aaron Finbloom is a philosopher, artist and pedagogue.  He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the founder & director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI).  His practice involves expanding transformative inquiry through games, performance art and structured play.  With training in Circling, Authentic Relating, and Psychodrama, he also facilitates experimental individual and group sessions inspired by these practices.  Finbloom has presented works internationally at venues which include:  The Museum of Contemporary Art in Chicago, Gallery 151 (New York), Maschinenhaus Kulturbrauerei (Berlin), UNAM (Mexico City), and MainLine Theatre (Montreal). He holds a PhD in Interdisciplinary Humanities & Fine Arts from Concordia University in Montreal, and is currently teaching Philosophy at the City College of New York and The University of Portland. finblooming.com

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Spring 2025 Existential Playgrounds will focus again on the imaginal – our imagination’s capacity to co-construct images with the world. The third and final playground will focus on “Relationality” as we will play with how another person contains a rich vital field of our own projections and introjections. We will work in pairs and carefully, consensually and politely invite our partner to move in ways that facilitate our imagination’s perception of them.
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Bio: Aaron Finbloom is an ideological polytheist, devoted to exploring and worshipping the divine frameworks of: art, play, listening, healing and wonder. His life work involves expanding transformative inquiry practice through games, performance art and conversation scores. He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI). Aaron has training in Circling, Psychodrama, Buddhist Meditation and Processwork and holds a PhD in relational practice from Concordia University in Montreal. He currently teaches philosophy at the City College of New York. finblooming.com

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge: I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Interoception is our ability to feel what our body is feeling. Common examples include the ability to know you are hungry, or have to go to the bathroom. However, this also includes the ability to sense emotional pains and pleasures in the body.  We will start with some basic body awareness techniques, and then move into using our imaginations to modify and strengthen these awarenesses.  For example, that knot in your chest, what if you begin to unravel it?  And do you feel it unraveling?  Can you try to put that unraveling outside of your body?  

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Doubling is a psychodramatic technique whereby one person attempts to speak the inner world of another.  The function of doubling is to reach deeper layers of expression by bridging subjectivities (I am, for a moment, you), thereby reaching images and experiences that an individual may have a harder time expressing and accessing. In this existential playground we will introduce the technique, practice it together, and then experiment with modifications.  
 
Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground. This will last 1 hour. Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards. Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements. We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving. Honor Self: I agree to honor myself. This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other. This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge. This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality. I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Kabuki Circling is an extended Circling practice inspired by the Japanese theatre form. We will dive into this practice together, which involves every participant taking on a role which they play to help deepen the conversation. Some examples include: The Empath, The Truth Seeker, The Romantic. Kabuki Circling was invented by Mike Blas of the Austin Love Juggernaut, under the name “Terminator”, and was revised by Sara Ness and Chad Phillips.  No prior experience in Circling is necessary.

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground.  This will last 1 hour.  Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards.  Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements.  We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving.  Honor Self: I agree to honor myself.  This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other.  This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge.  This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality.  I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Circling is a relational meditation practice that aims to bring a group into connection and authenticity.  The form will be introduced, and we will enter into the practice using a guided set of conversation rules.  Once we’ve learnt the rules, we will improvise with the form, centering our attention on the group as a whole, and then one volunteer.  No prior experience in Circling is necessary.

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, and dive into the playground.  This will last 1 hour.  Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards.  Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements.  We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving.  Honor Self: I agree to honor myself.  This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other.  This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge.  This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality.  I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.


Existential Playground #6 Day Dreaming | Thursday April 7, 2022

This Existential Playground is devoted to a practice that we have been playing with called Day Dreaming or Visioning.  It is really quite simple.  You close your eyes, collectively allow dreams, images and events to unfold, and use verbal speech to describe the experience.  That is the basic form which we will play via a set of different variations, some examples being:  An organic form with a large group.  One person leads, another person follows.  The image-world is seeded with something emotionally salient.  There are pauses to evaluate.  One intentionally construct a scene (a past conflict?) to see how it unfolds differently.  The practice tends to be one of deep subconscious revelation and exploration and is really fun to do in pairs, with a larger group, or just alone. 

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, play with subtext together and in groups.  This will last 1 hour.  Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards.  Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements.  We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving.  Honor Self: I agree to honor myself.  This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other.  This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge.  This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality.  I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

This Existential Playground is devoted to a practice that we have been playing with called Day Dreaming or Visioning.  It is really quite simple.  You close your eyes, collectively allow dreams, images and events to unfold, and use verbal speech to describe the experience.  That is the basic form which we will play via a set of different variations, some examples being:  An organic form with a large group.  One person leads, another person follows.  The image-world is seeded with something emotionally salient.  There are pauses to evaluate.  One intentionally construct a scene (a past conflict?) to see how it unfolds differently.  The practice tends to be one of deep subconscious revelation and exploration and is really fun to do in pairs, with a larger group, or just alone. 

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, play with subtext together and in groups.  This will last 1 hour.  Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards.  Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements.  We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving.  Honor Self: I agree to honor myself.  This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other.  This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge.  This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality.  I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

“Oh hello! Nice to meet you! Where are you from? Do you come here often? Oh yea, what’s the weather like there?”  How many times have we heard lines like this?  But what is really being said when we say what we say?   What are the hidden subtexts that lie hidden beneath our conversation?  And can we modify these subtexts to change how we speak together? In this existential playground we will examine conversational subtexts, unearthing them from their tender underground layers, and then begin to play with them.  Can we operate our conversational lives by living in the subtext? Can we converse through and in these under-layers?  Can we re-define the parameters of our subtexts in a game of conversation?  We’ll try all of this, and see what ensues.  Come join in for some weird, awkward, lovely, interesting conversational fun!

Timing: We will gather, do some warmups together, play with subtext together and in groups.  This will last 1 hour.  Then we will have 15-30 minutes for conversation afterwards.  Participants are welcome to depart early if you can only allocate 1 hour. However, all participants must arrive no later than 5 minutes after the hour, and we will not be allowing late arrivals.

Safety: All Deep Play Institute events contain 4 basic agreements.  We will briefly go over these agreements at the beginning of each Existential Playground, but please familiarize yourself before arriving.  Honor Self: I agree to honor myself.  This entails setting my own boundaries, and not participating in any activity that crosses my threshold of consent. Honor Other:  I agree to honor other.  This entails respecting the other person to set their own boundaries, and not pushing anyone to cross over a boundary that they set. Explore My Edge:  I agree to explore my edge.  This entails assessing where I am in a given moment (between emotional risk and safety) and taking a step in the direction of emotional risk, with the understanding that this brings growth and transformation. Confidentiality.  I agree to not share any name-identifying information from the program I attend with anyone outside of it.

Even Further Past Existential Playgrounds

Existential Playground #4 The Room

Event: Saturday July 10, 2021 12-3pm EST Integration: Tuesday July 13, 2021 12-1pm EST

You are in the real world, in a real room. I am in the real world, in a real room. We both close our eyes and enter another space. Together, we illustrate our surroundings. Everything in this room is built through our words. Together, we build something outside ourselves that belongs to both of us. It’s surprisingly intimate to create a world for each other.  In this world, limitless creative potential is tethered by accountability. This world is both a dream and an ecosystem. Everything is available but all choices must coexist with those that came before them. Each moment is idiosyncratic, emerging from the relationality between you and the others crafting this imaginary scene.

The Room, designed by artist-improvisors Anna Kroll and Chloë Engel, is a structured exercise in collaborative imagination. The Room begins with a warmup, where we are together in small groups practicing a series of verbal scores – Action, Sensation, Space. Once these verbal scores become more familiar, they are combined to create an improvisational field (a shared language) of creation and existence which is The Room. 

The Room asks us: can we share a space, a dance, a body, when we are not physically together?  What happens when we attempt this imaginary togetherness? What new sense of encounter is afforded in this playful imaginary? What can become when the laws of physics are made a bit looser?  What new paths of intimacy are carved in this fantastic terrain? Each moment offers an opportunity for reflection – what do we remember, what did we feel, what would have changed? What did we need that we didn’t have? What did we have that we didn’t need?  

Anna Kroll’s and Chloë Engel’s work draws from both of their experiences as dance artists and improvisers. They began this collaboration in the Fall of 2020 developing the practice through weekly phone calls that began with the prompt – how can we create a spoken dance? 

Workshop Details: 
Event: Saturday July 10th 12pm-3pm EST
Integration: Tuesday July 13th 12pm-1pm EST
Tickets:  Early Bird Tickets (available until July 1st) are $33.  Please contact The Deep Play Institute for sliding scale options if needed.  Tickets can be purchased here.  Our event will be located on Zoom, and a ticket gives you access to the entirety of the event and integration. No prior experience in play, playgrounds, or existential playgrounds is necessary. 

Anna Kroll is a dancer, choreographer and interdisciplinary artist. Anna’s performance work has been shown at No Theme Festival (Poughkeepsie, NY) in Philadelphia Theaters, Rivers and Subway Underpasses at FringeArts’ Scratch Night, Open Call Guerilla Outdoor Performance Festival, Invisible River’s Schuylkill River Arts Day, Cathy Weis’ Sundays on Broadway (NYC), and Danspace’s Draftwork series (NYC). Her pieces aqueousness (an Instagram feed), and #AllYourMarketing (a live video feed) were in the Digital Fringe portion of the Philadelphia Fringe Festival. Alluvium and Inlet were commissioned by the Painted Bride Art Center for their expanded archive of Philadelphia, “Re-place-ing Philadelphia”. Her looping video piece your toes, your skin, your heart, your bones was included in the online film festival “Trans(m)it”. She is currently an MFA student at UMBC in Intermedia & Digital Art. She received her BA from Bennington College and is an alum of the Headlong Performance Institute. annakroll.com

Chloë Engel (she/they) is a performer, improviser, teacher, and nanny currently based in Brooklyn, NY.  Chloë makes performance about Madness, hazy trauma, nostalgia, and queer reverie as rebellion. Chloë’s performance work has been shown at Open Performance, No Theme Festival (Poughkeepsie, NY), Little Berlin (Philadelphia, PA), Middlebury College, Bennington College, and AUNTS Festival (Brooklyn, NY). She teaches a weekly online associative meditation class called: suggested methods to feel your feelings. chloeengel.org

Existential Playground #3 W/Holes

May 7th 2021 11am-2pm EST

We have been playing so much with our parts that we’ve neglected our wholes!  For this existential playground we will explore holes and wholes. How are holes wholes? Where are the holes inside our holes? When do we feel a hole or a whole? How are holes and wholes mixed and intermixed?  How does language make holes whole again?  Are holes holy?  We’re thinking about: shadow integration, holes in crocheted doilies making fractal patterns which reveal the whole, black holes (that which sucks in all things), and even arse holes (in the existential sense).  

The event itself (a 180 minute WHOLE) will be composed of four ~40 minutes w/holes, along with intros and conclusions.  Each of these w/holes, will be orchestrated by a facilitator who will divide their w/hole into a series of holes. These holes will fragment and divide us from the larger whole, dividing time into delicious holy morsels.  In each hole that you (the participant) are placed within, you will find that you are holed up with a group of others with some sort of task in need of accomplishing, some sort of hole that is need of filling.  With each new hole you find yourselves in, the questions of ‘how we are holed, holy and wholed?’ will be dug up, played with, explored and pieced together.

A few days following the playground we will also hold a 1-hour conversation reflecting and integrating our experience.

Workshop Details: 
Event: Friday May 7th 11am-2pm EST
Integration: Tuesday May 11th 11am-12pm EST
Tickets:  Early Bird Tickets (available until April 24th) are $33.  Please contact The Deep Play Institute for sliding scale options if needed.  Tickets can be purchased here.  Our event will be located on Zoom, and a ticket gives you access to the entirety of the event.

MEET OUR W/HOLES & FACILITATORS:

Hole, Holy, Whole / Aaron Finbloom
Close your eyes, now imagine you are in a hole.  How deep is it?  How wide?  What is it made of?  How are you feeling being inside of it?  How long have you been there?  With our eyes closed, and in groups of 3, we will transport ourselves into a wild, fantastic world where our imaginations reign supreme, and where holes, wholes and holiness abound.

Bio:  Aaron Finbloom is a philosopher, artist and pedagogue.  He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI).  His practice involves expanding transformative inquiry through games, performance art and structured play.  With training in Circling, Authentic Relating, and Psychodrama, he facilitates experimental individual and group sessions inspired by these practices.  He holds a PhD in Interdisciplinary Humanities & Fine Arts from Concordia University in Montreal, and is currently teaching Philosophy at the City College of New York. www.finblooming.com

Getting Unstuck / Khuyen Bui
“Change is the only constant” sounds good in theory, but in practice, we all have stagnated puddle somewhere in our life. For this session, you will get to dig around a part of life that needs some gentle shaking up. We will have exactly 37 minutes for 4 tasks of increasing level of murkiness that will bring you from delight to aghast and then to Aha.  Warning: while it’s playful, it can be also be useful.

Bio: Sociable nerd, reasonable geek and part-time philosopher, Khuyen enjoys musing & writing about common yet still difficult human dilemma. Graduated from Tufts University studying Computer Science and Philosophy, he thrives in bringing analytical rigor into his inquiries of human messiness.  Besides his own coaching practice, he had designed and facilitated hundreds of hours of workshops for various groups and teams. Drawing from various traditions and disciplines, particularly Contact Improvisation, Circling and the Enneagram, his work seeks to uncover the goodness that is already here. Catch him if you can at khuyenbui.com.

ROWD TRIP / Natalia Stroika
In the game ROWD TRIP each player will complete a personal puzzle through semi-structured encounters with other players. The iterative process will reveal unique clues that can only be generated by serendipitous interactions with specific Others, experienced as random at first but eventually tying together into a meaningful whole. 

Bio: Natalia Stroika is an existential game maker/destroyer. She is the creator of Ludic Liberation, a practice of collective play aimed at revealing & releasing our internalized limitations. You can read more about the Ludic Liberation philosophy at www.ludicliberation.com, join a monthly Ludic Liberation Lab to help us research & develop new game concepts and mechanics, or work with Natalia directly on tuning up or redesigning your Personal Existential Game (PEG). 

Your (w)hole life! / Rosi Greenberg
Your (w)hole life! We’ll reflect on elements of your life, exploring where there are holes and where there are wholes of the larger whole. We’ll use expressive art and free association to find insights into our lives, reflecting back the w/hole of one another’s being. As part of a collective whole, we’ll draw out the wisdom to explore what elements of the collective system we each hold (whole-d?).

Bio: Rosi offers leadership workshops for people at all levels, focusing on seeing self and other in deeper ways. An artist, Rosi scribes meetings as they happen and helps people come into more joyful, creative contact with one another. Rosi has studied storytelling, group dynamics, and leadership, and has a background in education. Rosi lives in Cambridge MA and is the founder of Drawn to Lead. https://www.drawntolead.org/

Existential Playground #2 Characters

Saturday March 6, 2021 3:00-6:00pm EST

In our first Existential Playground we forayed into the bizarre world of our inner parts, sensing our psychological landscapes, and gaining some greater familiarity of the terrain.  This upcoming Existential Playground will be a more formidable adventure into this world through the construction of a character devised from a few of our inner parts. The facilitators will help us enter into character for the entirety of our time together, and situate us in a fictional world designed to help us get to know the parts we chose.  

Before the event, participants will be asked to do 30 minutes of meditation and writing to develop our characters.  This will involve partaking in a brief Internal Family Systems meditation, mapping a handful of your inner parts, (for example: your inner critic, lover, worrier, or joker) devising a character from 1-2 of these parts, and then answering some questions about your character.  Some of these questions may include:  How old is your character? What are their gender pronouns? What is a hobby or activity they enjoy? What is their occupation? What is something they detest?

For our event the fictional world we will construct and enter into will be the following:  You are one member of a group of participants who have been solicited by the United States government to brainstorm a brand new adult education program designed to increase emotional intelligence. This program will be mandatory for all adult citizens and so your participation is vital. Through a series of intimate structured encounters with the other participants you will help construct a world that makes more space for people like you.

Workshop Details: For the first part of our workshop (~30 minutes) we will work on getting into our characters through some opening exercises led by organizers Aaron Finbloom and Netta Sadovsky.  Then we will fully enter the fictional world with our character for approximately 1.5 hours led by facilitator Lolo Haha. We will end with a closing reflection and debriefing.  Early Bird Tickets (available until February 25th) are $30.  Please contact The Deep Play Institute for sliding scale options if needed.  Tickets can be purchased here.  Our event will be located on Zoom, and a ticket gives you access to the entirety of the event.     
 
Facilitator Bios:

Lolo Haha (he/him) is a counselor, equity consultant, conflict mediator, and social justice theatre director based in Portland, Oregon. He works with individuals, couples, organizations, and communities to grow in their relationship toward conflict and paradox and to evolve toward a greater collective freedom.

Netta Sadovsky (she/her) is a social work masters student at Bryn Mawr College. As a clinical social work intern she provides group and individual counseling to survivors of domestic violence and abuse at Laurel House, and has facilitated groups for adults with co-occuring substance abuse and mental health disorders at Pathways to Recovery. She is a student of Psychodrama, Tavistock Group Relations, Mindful Facilitation, and Internal Family Systems, and makes artwork that borrows from and experiments with these practices.

Aaron Finbloom (he/him) is a philosopher, artist and pedagogue.  He is the co-founder of The School of Making Thinking (SMT) and the Director of The Deep Play Institute (DPI).  His practice involves expanding transformative conversation through games, performance and play structures.  With training in Circling, Authentic Relating, and Psychodrama, he has led dozens of individual and group sessions inspired by these practices.  He holds a PhD in Interdisciplinary Humanities & Fine Arts from Concordia University in Montreal, and is currently teaching Philosophy at the City College of New York.

 

Existential Playground #1 Parts

Saturday Nov 21, 2020 3-6:30pm EST

We are all made up of parts (i.e. different roles, selves, or inner voices).  A critic, a lover, a despairer, a self-negater, a cheerleader, an aesthete, etc.  Many relational practices (Internal Family Systems Therapy, Gestalt Therapy, Process Work, Psychodrama, etc) attempt to work with these parts, to illuminate them, to help them collaborate, to speak, to see what lies beneath them.  Our first existential playground we will be devoted to playing with our parts.  After a short parts mapping introductory exercise, a handful of facilitators will offer workshops for us to participate in – as our parts.  As we play, some of the questions that will most likely frame our playground are: What are my parts?  What are your parts?  Do they get along?  Should they get along?  How should they get along?  What does that getting along look like?  Is “getting along” an authentic mode of relating?  What if they don’t want to get along?  Do some of my parts deserve to be pushed down or silenced?  Do all parts deserve a voice?  What if a part is violent or hurtful?  Is there another part beneath it that is non-violent or not-hurtful?  Does the core of all our parts want peace and love?  Or is there no “core” to our parts?  Or are these “cores” more messy, uncertain, and a mix of good and bad?  Is there a part that bridges all these parts?  Is there a self that integrates the parts?  Is that “integrator” also a part?  Is it parts all the way down?

Early Bird Tickets (until Nov 10th) are $30.  Contact for sliding scale options if needed.  Tickets can be purchased here. Our event will be located on Zoom, and a ticket gives you access to the entirety of the event.  Participants will need to choose 2 of 4 workshops (1 per session). 

PURCHASE TICKETS

SCHEDULE

  • Saturday Nov 21, 3:00-6:30pm EST
  • 3:00 PM Gathering
  • 3:05 PM Parts Meditation
  • 3:30 – 4:30 Session 1
    BODY Parts and Tension as an Expression of the Self – Gabrielle Revlock
    or
    Voice Dialogues: Talking Between Selves – Ilana Simons
  • 4:35 – 5:00 Intermission / Parts Party Break
  • 5:00 – 6:00 Session 2
    Inviting our monsters to dance Inviting Our Monsters to Dance – Anna Costa e Silva
    or
    An Exchange of Masks: Finding Ourselves in Others – Melanie Cohn
  • 6:05 – 6:30 Closing Reflections & Questions

WORKSHOPS

Voice Dialogues: Talking Between Selves
Ilana Simons
Session 1

This workshop is an experiential dive into Voice Dialogue, a therapeutic practice that comes out of the Jungian tradition, in which therapist and client explore the various personalities that live inside us. The idea is that when we grow up into a certain family or culture, certain aspects of our personality get firmly developed, and others get less attended to, or disowned. Growing up in one family structure, you might develop your “Achiever” to a high degree; and in turn, your “Receiver,” or the side that can ask for help, gets less attention. But these various sides always live inside us. In Voice Dialogue, a client gets the space to speak from just one of those personalities or energies—without apology, without placing it in context, without explaining. Having used this technique in private practice for a number of years, I know the power of that release. To speak from one side of personality without having to frame it is to honor it and release it. When we are done speaking from that one energy, we move back to the place of the center, which in Voice Dialogue is called Aware Ego. Aware Ego is the wisest form of ME from which we host dialogue among our various selves. In Voice Dialogue, self-acceptance is never the notion that we should uproot or suppress a side of ourself. Each side arose for a certain purpose, and brings a strength. Self-acceptance, or self-love, is when we are receptive to each of our various characters and host useful dialogue or coordination between them. 

In this one-hour workshop, I will start with an explanation of the Voice Dialogue technique. I am a psychologist who uses the method in my private practice, which I have had for 10 years. We will experience a few dyads in the group – I will conduct voice dialogue with a few participants, and the group will collectively make observations and add insight. We will then each find one energy inside that calls us – a character of action – and come back to the larger group in character. You will work from just one energy within you, playing that energy out with the group. It’s a tea party in partial self. In the end, we will discuss how living in that energy relieved some pressure, or allowed us to see new aspects of ourselves. 

Bio:  I am a clinical psychologist who has worked in private practice for 10 years, in NYC, LA and now in Santa FE, NM. I work principally with artists, and Voice Dialogue is a central way in which I practice. I have PhD’s in both literature and psychology and have taught with The School of Making Thinking before, teaching a course in the Video Poem at Abron’s Art Center in 2015. I have also taught literature and writing at New York University, The New School, and the 92nd St Y. I am a filmmaker too, and my films have screened at The Cannes Film Festival, Hyperallergic.com, Poets & Writers website, Animation Block Party, and in Alain de Botton’s School of Life series. I write a blog for Psychology Today and originated Tin House magazine’s online site for video poems, Tin House Reels. I wrote and performed the one-woman show All Together Now at the New York Fringe Festival and am the author of A Life of One’s Own: A Guide to Better Living through the Work and Wisdom of Virginia Woolf (Penguin) http://ilanasimonsart.com/

BODY Parts and Tension as an Expression of the Self
Gabrielle Revlock
Session 1

We will begin by warming up the body, section at a time, through a guided and flowing improvisation. As we do so, we will observe the thoughts and feelings that arise. Which of your parts is present in this moment? And what causes another to enter, or not? We will then dive into a few ways we might organize the body. Inspired by Body-Mind Centering neurocellular patterns, we will explore homologous, homolateral, and contralateral movements. Do these movement patterns resonate with specific parts of the self? How might developmental patterns reflect the complexity or primitive nature of our parts? Might knowing these patterns bring greater physical expressiveness to our various parts? Finally, we will introduce our parts to Jacques Lecoq’s Seven Levels of Tension: Exhausted, Laid Back, Neutral, Alert, Suspense, Passionate and Tragic. What can we discover about the depth of our parts by allowing them to inhabit these tension states? Which states resonate while others challenge our assumptions about how our parts engage with the world? What are each of your parts’ default state of tension? Is there a relationship between muscle tension and identity? If we pay attention to how tension is distributed throughout the body, what might we notice and what might that signify? Our exploration will move us in ways familiar and foreign, opening participants to endless play and possibility. This movement focused workshop will include solo, partner and group reflection through writing and conversation.

Bio:  I am a body-based artist whose work often depicts complicated but relatable interpersonal relationships using pedestrian movement vocabulary, abstracted by degrees. I’ve toured to Japan, the Netherlands, Singapore, Hungary, India, Russia, and been presented at notable US venues including New York Live Arts, The Flea, American Dance Festival, Gibney, Annenberg Center for the Performing Arts, JACK and FringeArts. My work has been supported by grants from the Puffin Foundation, Foundation for Contemporary Arts, Lower Manhattan Cultural Council, Pennsylvania Council for the Arts, American Dance Abroad, US Department of State and the Independence Foundation. In 2018 I was named ‘Newcomer of the Year’ by tanz, the German journal of ballet, dance, and performance. In 2019 I was an Institute Fellow with the experimental theater company, Target Margin. As a dancer, I’ve performed for Lucinda Childs, Jumatatu Poe, Susan Rethorst, Christopher Williams, Vicky Shick, Bill Young and Jane Comfort. In my role as teacher/facilitator I am on faculty with Movement Research and am a facilitator of the Brooklyn Contact Jam. Other places I’ve taught include: American Dance Festival, Gibney, The Fabric Workshop and Museum, Greene Towne School, Bryn Mawr College, Swarthmore College, Abrons Arts Center, The Barnes Foundation, Rowan University, NYU, Drexel University and Vassar College. In 2014 I created CardioCreativity a holistic dance fitness class with Nicole Bindler. It was featured on ABC news and received rave reviews from students for it’s fun and community-oriented approach to fitness. I am also the creator of Restorative Contact, a mindful touch-based movement and empathy practice, which is a 5-star Airbnb Experience.  http://gabriellerevlock.com/

An Exchange of Masks: Finding Ourselves in Others
Melanie Cohn 
Session 2

This experiential workshop creates a space to explore parts of ourselves that may not be our predominant way of being. The workshop is based on games from the arsenal of the Theatre of the Oppressed created by Augusto Boal, adapted for the distance technology of Zoom.  Exercises will allow participants to fully feel their predominant way of being in the world and then will offer a space to”try on” physical characters modeled by others.  In this way, we will begin to recognize hidden parts of ourselves. Participants will then have the opportunity to reflect and compare these states, exploring the strengths and vulnerabilities of various parts. In order to come to a space to work together, participants are asked to be prepared to turn their cameras on for active interaction within the group.

Bio

Melanie Cohn is a visual artist and the executive director of the Visual Arts Center of New Jersey where she has led the organization in growing its community programs–including the establishment of an art therapy program with New Jersey Veterans Affairs. Previously, she led Staten Island Arts, deepening its programs in art & healing, education, and folk art. She received her MFA from the School of Visual Arts & her BFA from Missouri State University.


Inviting our monsters to dance Inviting Our Monsters to Dance

Anna Costa e Silva 
Session 2

The roles and parts we play are usually connected to past experiences and traumas; they are forms to protect ourselves from coming back to difficult emotional places. Behind each mask, there lies a monster who is afraid to be faced and discovered. Monsters are our fears, the parts of us that we deny and that impede us to move forward, restraining our movement to the same forms. “Inviting our monsters to dance” is workshop in which we will get in contact with our shadows and fears in a playful way. Through one on one connection, this workshop will exercise an empathic feel towards our monsters, our parts and one another. Drawing, fictionalizing and dancing will be our paths to lighter and ludic ways of looking at our masks. This is a profound work that happens in a playful manner.

Bio

Anna Costa e Silva is an artist, director and professor from Rio de Janeiro, Brazil. Owner of an MFA in Visual Arts from the School of Visual Arts, NYC, she works in the intersections between visual arts, performance, social practice and healing. She has won awards such as Terremoto Ubisoft Grant, American Austrian Foundation Prize, FOCO ArtRio, was a PIPA Prize nominee and a finalist for Marcantonio Vilaça Award 2019. Among her solo shows are “Asymptotes” at Caixa Cultural, “I offer company” at Superfície Gallery, “Eter” at Centro Cultural São Paulo and “Purpura”, a mobile performative experience in public places in Rio de Janeiro. She also participated in group shows at institutions such as BienalSur (Buenos Aires), Contemporary Art Center (Vilnius) and Art In Odd Places (NY).  Anna has been trained in Transcendental Meditation, Mindfulness, Aura Reading, Reiki and is currently participating on a 3 year formation in Reichian therapy. Since 2019, she teaches ArtLife Practices at Parque Lage visual arts school, an interdisciplinary course that mixes art, life and healing. As a director, she directed the 24 episode TV documentary series “Gaze” about contemporary artists for Arte 1 channel. Anna is represented by Superfície Gallery and has works in public and private collections, including MAR – The Museum of Art, Rio de Janeiro.  

 

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This statement marks a shift in our orientation. While the values we describe have been an undercurrent of our work, they’ve drifted in and out of our awareness alongside other, sometimes contradictory, currents. Through writing this statement we attempt to swim in this one more faithfully:

Some strains of Buddhism and psychoanalysis meet in an anti-capitalist critique pushing us to look at the nature of desire as an endless self-perpetuating cycle of attainment and loss. The marketing for a product explicitly or implicitly says something like, “if you buy this product it will relieve your suffering.” These promises fail to disclose the truth about desire, at best, providing bandaids, or temporary resting places along a journey. At worst, their marketing and our participation in the fiction of fulfillment perpetuates even deeper and more prolonged suffering.

We aspire to consciously uncouple from the logic of commodity in what we offer at DPI. We attempt to disclose the truth regarding desire itself: that it endlessly perpetuates, and that no material or immaterial substance given to our psyche will ever truly nourish us; we are hungry and insatiable.

Through this orientation, where commodity acquisition offers transcendence, we attempt to offer immanence. Like monotheism’s vision of the afterlife as a relief from the present, capitalist consumption dangles a more pleasant future just ahead. We design structures and rituals to sanctify the mess of the now.

Even as we attempt rigor in this regard, we constantly fall into traps of desire. It is endlessly tempting to read salvation into our offer to sanctify the messes of the present. As facilitators we too want to be saved from suffering, and we unknowingly bake that longing into our offerings and affects. The same unfortunate situation occurs within both Buddhist and psychoanalytic traditions, where students encounter the truth of each system as a salvific balm.

Our task then is to keep insisting that we will not heal you. That you are always broken. And that playing with your brokenness, our primary task, will ultimately fail as well. And that, as Pema Chödrön insists, real bravery is not about holding on to hope, but about allowing ourselves to touch hopelessness directly. That when we lean into our groundlessness, rather than scrambling to escape it, we discover a deeper kind of courage — the willingness to rest in the unknown. Can we hold that immeasurable loss? Can we at least touch this loss together? Can we play with it not by only offering lightness and buoyancy to it, but also by merely sitting with each other with our shrunken, bated breaths, as we encounter aloneness together? That is the kind of deep play we aspire to offer.

We, the leadership and facilitators of The Deep Play Institute, want to speak to what it means for us to hold authority in our programs. We want to acknowledge the lineages of what we are offering, as well as our ignorance of many of the branches of those influences. In this acknowledgment, we borrow heavily from the language of Hana Van Der Kolk in their facilitation of somatic practices. The methods we offer are only in small part influenced by our own creativity—they derive from a complex interweaving of teachings and teachers, who themselves are complex interweavings of teachings and teachers. We will name these teachers, lineages, and influences wherever we are aware of them. However, as Hana writes: “We recognize that colonization, white supremacy, and globalization have erased some of the clarity of influence. We will do our best to unforget in the context of a culture that actively produces ignorance.”

At DPI we see it as our responsibility to explore barriers to play—to explore the question of: “What makes play hard?” We work this question into the structure of our play so that we don’t miss out on the wisdom that’s offered by participants of various social identities, legacies, and landscapes of ability. People of different races, classes, ethnicities, ages, neurodivergences, sexual orientations, abilities, and genders may find particular play with particular people and leaders challenging in ways that reflect the impacts of their intersecting identities. Rather than orient toward these hardnesses as obstructions, we work to see them as opportunities to play more deeply and reverentially with one another’s perceptual gifts. The play becomes magical, political, and deeply experimental as it continually welcomes friction as an impetus for creativity.

We recognize that people from marginalized groups—whether due to visible or invisible identities such as race, age, ability, or disability—often carry a heavier burden in shared spaces, including our play spaces. For someone with relative privilege, it might feel brave to say something like, “I feel shy” or “I’m struggling to speak up.” For someone from a marginalized identity, however, speaking a simple truth—such as acknowledging the discomfort of being the only visibly disabled person in the room—might feel profoundly vulnerable—in large part because they might reasonably expect the dominant group to struggle to gracefully receive this. The challenges and tensions in these spaces are not evenly distributed, and there can be an illusion of equality when everyone is invited to “speak hard truths.” At DPI we are committed to exploring ways to reduce and cope with this inequity. We also believe profound creativity and resilience can emerge when people play with these tensions, and discomfort can be redistributed in ways that are meaningful and liberatory for all involved.

When friction arises during our workshops, we observe it through the lens of the inequities and dynamics we’ve described. In these moments, we improvise to understand the unfolding group process and learn from the experience rather than rigidly follow our original plans. This is much easier said than done, however, and we recognize that as facilitators, our various privileges and limitations can impair our skillfulness in navigating how to responsibly and reverentially hold authority. Sometimes, our own shame, resistance, and avoidance prevent us from seeing, let alone playfully encountering, these frictions. We see these moments as some of our most profound opportunities for growth and seek feedback throughout our programs to that end. We hope for your grace and patience as we continue to refine our practice.​